I often struggle with feeling native “enough.” My grandma on my dad’s side is Ojibwe (Sault Ste Marie, MI) and my grandma on my mom’s side is Mexican and knows that she has ties to the Aztec and Kikapu people. Do other people struggle with this?
This is a tricky balance to find. One of which many people of different backgrounds share, especially during adolescence when you’re still trying to figure it all out. It’s natural to ask yourself questions about who you are. You are not alone in this.
You want to celebrate your Native roots, but perhaps feel held back for some reason. Consider where this is coming from. Yourself? Society? Others around you?
Consider Where It’s Coming From
Once you’ve taken time to consider the root of your feelings, consider whether it’s something you can let go, need resolution for, or if its something you need to do something about (like actively learning more or participating in more cultural events).
I cannot say what path is best for you. That is your job. However, I will encourage you to see the best of both cultures. There is rich history and tradition on both sides. See if you are able to find a balance between the two.
Embrace Who You Are
As you begin to know yourself better and have more confidence in the person you are and want to become, know that wherever you are, is where you’re meant to be. Walk this journey with patience and kindness for yourself.
Ultimately the decision of how you see yourself is yours. I hope you find peace knowing you’re just the right flavor.
I wish you the best of luck on this journey. There will be ups and downs, but that’s all part of the ride.